Sunday, March 29, 2009

Grieving Awkwardness

So yesterday, we went to a birthday dinner for a friend of ours that had turned the big 40. A couple of the people there know my mom and have spent many years with my Dad in the same ward. It was silly but I was hurt that not only did they fail to ask how my Mom was doing but they failed to offer their condolences. As a matter of fact it seemed to me that they did their best to not bring up either of my parents at all. Which to me felt awkward. During the first weeks of Dad's death and at the funeral. I did my best to avoid the condolences. I didn't want to hear how anyone was sorry about him dying or how he would be missed. I think now that was because I was trying to come to terms and accept that he really was gone. Now I'm at the point that I'm ready to talk others beyond my Mom and brothers and sisters about him. I want to know that we're not the only ones who miss him. I've had dreams that he isn't really dead and will be helping me in the dream to do something. I did that with my grandpa to. I just find myself in moments crying b/c I miss talking to him. I think I call my mom more than ever now to fill the void that is left. I loved going to lunch with him and rolling my eyes at his crotchetiness over the waiters. I loved just going in his office and chatting with him over various things, but especially spiritual milestones in my life. I am soooooooooo thankful that we are all sealed to him and that I know that I will see him again, but that doesn't change the fact that I miss him being available for our chats, I miss his presence, his funny stories that we heard so often that we had them memorized. I miss my Dad.
On a lighter note. Last night Douglas and I decided to get dessert at the dinner. We had seen another man and his son sharing the restaurants chocolate mousse cake. And it was huge and looked so moist and yummy. So after telling the lady we didn't want anything, we told her we changed our minds that we wanted one. So next thing we know she's putting one in front of Douglas and then in front of me. That's right, she thought we each wanted one! Douglas told her that was okay. I kept trying to give away bites. But even after I convinced three people to take a bite out of the side I hadn't touched, I could barely notice what would amount to a mouse's nibble. suffice it to say.... next time I'm saying no, it's not okay, you take the other one and go give it to the kitchen help! LOL. But....it was really really good ;)

Friday, March 27, 2009

The poem three entries below

Okay I have been asked twice now if I wrote that poem myself. The answer is, "yes"! I worked very hard on it. And for those of you who aren't sure but would like to ask...yes, I am pregnant :)

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

San Antonio Temple pics

The one group shot of us. It was nice of the sister that was leaving to offer to take this. She was older and didn't get Marian's camera, but she still did a great job!
I love this one! Edward was trying to figure out why we weren't paying attention. We told him we wanted a casual picture. It reminds me of the scenes on the t.v. before general conference starts of temple square.

This was our fun one. Edward and I making goofy faces. Doesn't really go with our mode of dress does it? lol



Me and my little big brother :) I'm so glad I got to do this with him. We're planning a baptismal trip for the boys here in the summer. I thought that would be a cool place for Isaac to go for his first time.



Me and my beautiful Sister in law. I love that we have a close friendship. And I hope we get to attend that spa together soon ;)









New Hair Cut








Okay I promised Em I would put pics of the new haircut up. I've been working to get the right length in the front for a while so I could get this one. I love it! My husband seemed to like it to. Not like the last one when he came in and said, "Why did you do that ?". LOL. Reminded me of Dad. Totally honest! It feels so light and chic. Just the thing I needed as morning sickness sets in and I have to hang over the toliet! It will be nice not to worry about having to hold my hair out of the way. LOL. Although, knock on wood, so far I've just dealt with queasiness, but while it bothers me, it hasn't sent me running for the porcelain god. So maybe I'll skip out with this one :)

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Do you think I posted enough today?

LOL! Sorry I got so far behind. I promise I'm almost done. So today I got released from my calling. Three little boys, all brothers, approached me after church to tell me they would miss me. The oldest, said I was a really good teacher. Then the middle one not to be out done said I was a good singer. The littlest one started piping up "me too, me too". I think that meant he felt the same. I said "wow, thank you. I don't think I've recieved so many compliments at one time and from such handsome men". Upon hearing this the older one says..."And your very pretty". I told them my head just got to big for my shoulders. The mother of these three charming young men was cracking up! I told her I'd have to tell Douglas that he had competition ;)
So here is a poem for everyone, let's see if you can figure out what it means...
The Test
My heart thrills,
My mind reels,
Excitement pumps within my breast.
My eyes are bright,
My head is light,
I think I maybe holding my breath.
One minute, two minutes,
Three, then its,
Count how many lines appear.
Grinning ear to ear,
I tell my dear..
"Honey another one is on the way!"

Comments on Isaac's pics below

Lately, Isaac has been spending a great deal of time reading fact books. You know the big books with beautiful pictures and photographs that contain textbook information on specific subjects. He's alot like Douglas that way. He also has been taking pictures of the buildings he creates with Lil Red's blocks. I told him maybe he should be an architect. He told me nah, he only likes building with blocks, lol.

A bit about Isaac

Playing on Grandmommies slide that she gave us, and hanging out in the yard

Mozart and Lil Red practicing the trumpet together

Okay there are only two pics on this, but I wanted to make sure you could see Aunt Marian's head :)

The Pictures in the posts below and above..

are from our trip to visit San Antonio. When Aunt Marian gets around to emailing me, I'll post some great pics of us at the temple. Well of Uncle Edward, she, and I. Lil Red had alot of fun going to visit for two days so we could check out some new parks.

Pics from parks

Ant experiments



Okay this actually happened in February but I never got around to posting about it. One day I came in the kitchen and I saw this huge ant crawling across the counter. I killed it and didn't think anything more about it. The next day there were more. It was gross, they would sit in strategic places on the cupboard waiting to smell something sugary to attack. It was worse than roaches b/c they didn't bother to hide. They were cocky, and I knew I couldn't let such uppity behavior continue in my kitchen, besides it was creepy. So I did what any good house wife does. lol, I called the exterminator. He came out and said this is really weird. You don't see these in Texas. I said, "I know, so where did they come from?". He couldn't give me an answer, but laid some bait and poured some stuff down my sink b/c I thought they might have come from there. Over the next few days it got a little worse which is normal. The day before they all dissappeared, I came into the kitchen. One of the boys had left a glass of half finished kool-aid by the sink. This is what I found. They weren't dead. They were crawling over each other to stay alive.



So I sprayed bleach cleaner in the glass and they all died and floated apart w/in a minute.

And I lived happily ever after !!!

Clickitis and Isaac

The other day I had one of those stupid flashy squares come up while I was working on the computer and Isaac happened to be there. "Look!" he says, "your the 1,999,999 visitor, click here to win! Let's click it". He was beside himself that I wouldn't click the button. Telling him that it was a gimick and that they would probably stick a bunch of cookies on my computer that I didn't want. But he was being so silly in trying to talk me into it that I had to grab the camera that was sitting there. Enjoy!

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